Hi! Know I've been neglecting my blog for a long time. I'm so busy, alright more on lazy in fact. But life's good with Ryan with me. I love him so much. Yeap. ^^

Hi baby teo. I love you. Hi baby teo. I love you.

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Just me and you.

I wanna go back to the generation when a guy had to get permission from the girl's parents to ask her out. I wanna go back to the generation where a guy would physically call her and talk to her, not text. I wanna go back to the generation where your first kiss would be with someone you've been dating for months, not hookup with a guy you meet in a club. I wanna go back to the generation where a guy would give you his varsity jacket. I wanna go back to the generation where a girl can get any guy just by wearing a t-shirt, jeans, and a pair of sneakers. I wanna go back to the generation where the guy wanted the girl, not always just the sex. I wanna go back to the generation where couples slow danced, not grind. I wanna go back to the generation where love actually made sense. And just so you know, after being with you, darling. Everything makes sense.

He's such a huge part of my life now. Basically everything I do reminds me of him. Having lunch together, dinner together, naps together, eat like tmr together, daily phone call after school, before sleep and everything. I'm so glad I have you. Stop making me worrying, please takecare of yourself when I'm not beside you. :(

Holiday is coming, tmr is tgif! Yesyesyesyes! I need a break from school. It's so tiring.

I've made a vow, to no one but you
I pledge my love to forever be true
I'll take care of you and treat you right
I'll lay beside you all through the night
I'll feed you and clothe you and keep you warm
I'll hug you and kiss you and give shelter in the storm
I'll help you and guide you and clear a path
I'll protect you and shield you from an angry man's wrath
I'll listen to your problems help you solve them too
I'll make you a rainbow and let the sun shine through
I'll take your side even if you're wrong
Just to prove our love is strong
I'll plant you flowers and make them grow
They'll be a symbol of love that only we'll know
I'll whisper your name when no one is near
So low that only you can hear
You'll feel my love even if we're apart
You'll know that we are one in heart.

I don't mind when our conversations gets a little boring or when we're texting and we ran out of things to say. I don't care if we're hanging out but doing nothing, because just having you is enough to make me happy.
But please don't leave me wondering if you still care, because you should know I'm deeply insecure.
I need to change that, it would have to be trust. 
Trust that he doesn’t cheat on you, trust that he doesn’t lie to
 you, trust that he really likes you, trust that he will always be
 there for you, trust that he can go to a party and not get high 
or drunk, trust that you don’t have to worry about him breaking 
up with you the second you wake up, trust that he will stick up 
for you, trust that he will never fall in love with another girl,
 trust that he won’t just get sick of you, and trust that he
 wants you like you want him.

Yeah, Too long never update. I'm lost in my own blog.

Last friday night.
Co concert was a blast. But it would be better if my cohort people and more seniors is there. That's the day I realise Roses isn't cheap at all. Hmm. LOL.

Went Ecp with baby, one of the best day of my life. Spend 11 hours with him isn't enough at all :(
His dad fetch me and him , sucha nice guy! Like father like son. ;)
Rode the couple bicycle I suppose, it's pink in colour. Woot! Picnic then went to clementi. Pictures!

I love to see your smile especially when it is for me.
I love to gaze into your eyes because in them I see a glimpse into a future
that we will fill with love and all the things that now we only can dream of.

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You know there’s always that moment right before someone becomes more than just a someone to you. But there's also that moment when someone who once means everything to you becoming nothing but dust.

I'm so damn freaking lazy to update my blog nowadays. I'd been going out far too often for a O's student life. Not good. I'm currently in a serious dilemma. I can't decide. What's best. It seems that both ways will hurt someone. I didn't mean this. You should know that right?

Chinese new year was just the usual. But is it me or it's a fact that there's fewer people each year with us? Ok what's that feeling inside now? People move on, I hope they're happy in heaven. Oh. Drop this topic. My baby nephew is super duper cute.


My niece.



Last thursday went Peng's house for steamboat. Friday went Weijie's house with Weinan and their 'cool' friend who doesn't with much emotional HAHA. Than to cine. Than meet Ryan afterwards for a little while. Sat which is today went over to Mr Damian's house than to peng's and yc's house. Pizza +Kfc for dinner. Tell me if I didn't gain any weight. Thanks. :)


Bye!

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In your arms, I forget what the yarn knows of sweaters, I forget how to hold myself together. So if I unfold now like a love letter, tell me you’ll write back soon.

Ok, Cny is coming in 2 days' time. Not much of a Chinese new year mood. Jialat sia. Christmas not mood, cny also no mood. How?
I could really feel the change in sec 5, 2nd week of school already got 2 test and a mock oral. How's that? Stress max.





Er hi. I'm a flower mouth girl.

'Just because we can’t be together, doesn’t mean I won’t love you.'

I’m not saying that at some point love isn’t staying up until 2am phone calls or stealing kisses when you least expect it, or instantly falling for each other’s favorite songs because it is, or at least that’s what the lead up to it feels like, but real love, is so much more. It’s going out at 12am to get something to eat for your wife who can’t get out of bed, it’s listening to them as they explode with vulnerability on your living room couch talking about how they were only so young when they’re parents passed on. it’s remembering how someone likes their coffee in the morning without asking—without ever asking, it’s visiting someone in the hospital knowing the last thing you want to do is see them in that condition, it’s wanting to be with that person despite despite everything, the future, the past, and everything in between, it’s the intimate things that you don’t even realize involve such intimacy, but they do, in secret, like the pinky promises you two made behind your back, to love one another for always, in the time you thought you were in love, when you were actually just on your way to it.

I haven't been posting a proper one for a while. Because I'm oh so busy .
Secondary 5 is so tiring, I mustn't give up!
Somebody told me you cried. You're the one who told me you won't be affected by me. You're the one who told me to go. And I don't have to explain myself to you. Who are you? :)
Ok went jogging.




How's my collar bone eh? :)

And I always ask myself, why me?
Too much for me to handle.
Save me.

This silence, while necessary, is heartbreaking.

HI. Yeah, It's my 17th birthday yesterday!
17. I never thought it will be so soon. I can clearly remember my first birthday in swiss. And never thought my last one in swiss early celebration will be ruined by some fuckards. Playing ard with my present when I'm not ard and attitude me. Aiseh,no one fcking treat me like this in my 17 years of life. 2 guys want bully a girl? Making me cry on 6 jan. A part of me wanna find trouble with them a part of me doesn't. I don't know. Monday some peeps wanna come back to swiss to find that two guys. Oh well. Goodluck :)

Like should I?

On 7jan.
Went Zoo with my new best friend! Walk around the whole zoo and so it's so tiring! But had fun. After that went Newton for Baby squid, Stingray and the kangkong? HAHA. Awesome dinner.
Till I reach home and realising my mum is not feeling well again. Not recovered and somehow worsen. My dad was taking care of her. Bro is not a home. And I'm supposed to cut the cake by myself. I broke down. I'm not angry just a little disappointment and worried. But there's this awesome friend that sum off my birthday by webcamming with me playing his ukelele and guitar while I cut my cake. Thanks Samuel! Photos on facebook.